Suicide Season Part 3

Woke up today. Nothing to do. there is never anything to do when you live 4 or 6 miles away from everything.. I have to stay at the house unless I get up early and go with my grandparents to work, which is just as boring... I watch T.V. and look around the house. On my grandpa's desk there is a can of air duster. I lose control and inhale half the can. I'm get the Wah Wah's which is the sound of your brain cells exploding. I love getting away from reality. later that day we decide to do hamburgers and they let me cook them. I consider myself a great cook and throw together some fantastic burgers. I was outside cooking on the grill and decided to finish off the air duster. The hamburgers are good and the day is almost done. I get on the computer and talk to some people then realize how alone I really am. Time to sleep.

This is Suicide Season Part 2 Life in California

Woke up today. Excited yet fearing the planning that goes on in my grandparents life. Grandma says were going to the beach. I cant wait to hit the waves on my skim board. We get in the car and I get the whole life story of California. "I never thought this would be how beautiful it is." I thought to myself as they were talking. We arrive at Ten Mile Beach and I grabbed my skim board and hit the waves. It was a blast and I couldn't wait to be back. Grandma made a fantastic dinner and we talked about school. Mom called.. I couldn't handle it. I hate what they did and stopped talking to everyone. Stopped thinking about the good and started on the bad. Depression takes over my life once again and the suicidal thoughts fill my mind. "How am I really supposed to live when the one thing I loved betrayed me?" is all I thought about.

This is Suicide Season Part 1

I am a trouble maker, and there is no doubt about it. I have been getting and staying into trouble since I was in fourth grade. Back then though, I got into trouble for grades. Now its everything else. The month is May...

I wake up and get out of bed, My mom and Dad tell me I am going to California cause of all the problems I have caused. I didn't mean for it to be like this. It all sort of spun out of control. All my stuff is packed and my flight is confirmed. Dad says it will be alright. Deep down though i know it wont be... My Dad and I arrive at the airport and head inside. we check in and we go to the gate. I tell my dad that I hope its alright and that i'm scared to go. I don't want to leave... Arrive in California and immediately feel out of place and alone. My grandparents are there waiting to pick me up. We go to their house and I move in. Seems Nice...