This is Suicide Season Part 2 Life in California

Woke up today. Excited yet fearing the planning that goes on in my grandparents life. Grandma says were going to the beach. I cant wait to hit the waves on my skim board. We get in the car and I get the whole life story of California. "I never thought this would be how beautiful it is." I thought to myself as they were talking. We arrive at Ten Mile Beach and I grabbed my skim board and hit the waves. It was a blast and I couldn't wait to be back. Grandma made a fantastic dinner and we talked about school. Mom called.. I couldn't handle it. I hate what they did and stopped talking to everyone. Stopped thinking about the good and started on the bad. Depression takes over my life once again and the suicidal thoughts fill my mind. "How am I really supposed to live when the one thing I loved betrayed me?" is all I thought about.